the blue bird flew over the fields of sorrow

you create a world of your own
where the truth, will never be known
--

oneself - bluebird

too many come to mind
too many of them r blue.
too many of them bring me
to you
and make me blue
..
cuz ive created
a world of my own
and i dont really
and dont really
at all
know what the truth is.
i know close to it
i dont know
where do i stand?

i stay on
spring air
float and
little by little
i die
inside.

i would put on gloves
i would never leave my bed
i would never open my eyes
i would never..
my head hurts
once again
i dont know
once again
once again
i find myself
in the same place
at the same time
its all the same..
cant i grow?
the fck~!
at least,
im the same
in my own head.
cuz theres nothing new
...

and that
should be it.
au revoir.

Can I mix in with your affairs?share a smoke, make a joke

Grasp and reach for a leg of hope
Words to memorize, words hypnotize
Words make my mouth exercise.
Words all fail the magic prize
Nothing I can say when I'm in your thighs
--
Violent Femmes - Add it up

and im gonna add it up
till then.
-
azi ploua
si e frigut
mie lene sa exist
si exist oricum
intrun mod aparte
bolind plictiseala
contagioasa si grea
care pe langa faptul
ca atarna
ma face si pe mine
sa atarn
deseori cu o mana
din pat.
am visat ciudat
ieri
ma urmarea o femeie
si ma facea
sami fie frica de ea
de parca urma
sa ma gaseasca
si sami faca ceva groaznic..
groaznic.
dar stiu eu alte lucruri mai rele
care continua
sa nu stea departe de mine
de ce?
habar nam
dar deja
parca sa mai agatat ceva de mine
si atarna prea multe
asa de multe
ca la un moment dat
o sa cad
in pacat!:))))))
nu,doar o sa cad
si o sa ma doara..
sau poate se desprind toate
si o sa reusesc sa zbor
macar putin.
good day,anyway!

new cavity moved into my heart today

the more she screams
the more it seems
now im
threw
---

Deftones Teenager


nu mai pot
mai mult de atat
fizic
emotional
mental
ma dor toate
si se simt de parca
as renunta..
la multe,
la toate,
la fiecare
in parte.
un somn lung
si apoi
o dimineata
de vara
frumoasa..
cer prea mult?
se pare..
uneori,
prea des:)
ca da
desi
e ceva
ce pare prea putin.
as fi vrut sa stiu
sentimentul asta
la 12 ani..
si sa ma bucur mai mult
de atunci..
macar putin
acum:)
nimic..din toate
mai nimic.

i spit out happiness
and seem to lose it
daily,
lose it.

you R all living on a rock called Earth..me? i simply rock..:D

in the sun..
i shine.
but what if
theres wind?
blaah.
only cuz it is.
i say im
like all of u
but the individuality
of every one of us
makes me different
so,
i always believed
im the outer spaced
one.
cuz my head
is always on a cloud
trying to sleep
and find
his personal peace.
i make no sense
but i make
myself..
and im lovin myself.
yay.

how the f@ck is everybody always so fu#kin fine???

it makes me feel like throwing up!
people R crazy
people R crazy
people R crazy
and they really R
im crazy..
im paranoid
and im angry
cuz they kill themselves
they cry
they eat shEt!!!
when u ask them
how R u?
im fiiine.
yes.FUCKIN FINE.
thats what u get.
well,
i say
im fckin not fine.
im not even CLOSE to fine:))
and im lovin it.
\m/!!!!!!!!!!!
yep.lovin not being part of the
FUCKIN FINE CROWD
KNOW WHAT?
fuck ya fine.:)):D

for what its worth..

im feeding my soul
with hope
and thoughts
of summer.
memories
of how the sun
burned my skin
and the sand
under my feet.
im feeding my soul
with the taste of
warm water
and the smell
of the sea in my hair.
im feeding my soul
with the buzzing
of all little bugs
dizzy on
summerlove.
im feeding my soul
like most of us do
in the middle of march
when outside
its winter.
aaah!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s2UWxiLSA48&feature=related

all the bad words in one..

awwwww:((
spring became winter
and winter became
the natural enviroment to live in
full of hatered
saying shit and fuck
all the way
to school
and backwards.
shit fuck piss
on ya freakin winter.
blahaaaaaa!!!
de la primu fulg incep cuvintele
sa curga
intro mare
de mizerii.
nu vreau
si cu toate astea
nu vreau nici sa ninga
asa ca
..
nai cum
si totul se termina
cu mortzzzz..
shitty day
shit
shit
shit
shit
and did i mention shit?
blah
sucky monday..

iscream

iscreaaaam
cuz i wanna b happy
and ill b happy
when u r gnna make me
scream
lol
so u r gonna say
scream!
and im gonna say
make me:>
haha
:))
im havin fun a little
for a little while
and a little later too
i hope.
this one kicks ass
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J6lof_D50h8&NR=1
and i mean big time:))
rock on baby!:D

1st day of spring,they say..

a gift from a friend:)

and it says about me :

* Loves to joke
* Attractive
* Suave and caring
* Brave and fearless
* Firm and has leadership qualities
* Knows how to console others
* Too generous and egoistic
* Takes high pride of oneself
* Thirsty for praises
* Extraordinary spirit
* Easily angered
* Angry when provoked
* Easily jealous
* Observant
* Careful and cautious
* Thinks quickly
* Independent thoughts
* Loves to lead and to be led
* Loves to dream
* Talented in the arts, music and defense
* Sensitive but not petty
* Poo! r resistance against illnesses
* Loving and caring
* Loves to make friends

thank you
you,
great friend
hard to find,
hard to forget:)
a keeper!muuah!
have a nice day.