another day.another night

you can be an individual when you belong to a society but how can you be a part of society when it makes you self-contradictory?
how can i survive this world when i dont know what to expect from it?its night and day and day and night its all of you racing your powers on the playground and the playground is now really somewhat of a leftover.
cuz really,i cant see no one playing anymore.
winter is staying even if we re close to march,and it doesnt seem to be leaving soon.
people are evil and the more you know them the less you think you know.
sleep is not enough and really,its been keeping me awake lately,even if im eyeshut.
i cant find myself in no one anymore because everybody is really gone.
i cant trust myself in no one because really,i wouldnt want myself be known and vulnerable but just to break out for a lil and not turn on me.