Thursday, April 15, 2010

la vie en rose




odata,un om mia spus
ca tot ce am facut e gresit
ma bantuie gandul lui..
si deseori ma intreb dacai asa
ideea e ca,daca e asa..
ar fi putut sa ma opreasca oricand
si na facuto nici macar
o data.:)
asa ca,revin incet
din cosmaruri
la cei al meu..
si as putea spune cami place
as putea.
no spun pentru ca
doar
asta e..
firea umana vrea intotdeauna
mai mult
dar,spre deosebire de omul ala
care imi spune cei bine
si cei rau..
eu macar..sunt om
si mi se pare
normal sa simt
si sa admit asta.
..
nu e nimic de demonstrat
nui bine,nui nici rau
doar asa a fost sa fie
si daca e
sa fie altfel
atunci
banuiesc ca..va fii,nu?

Saturday, April 10, 2010

forgeting who i am



today im an indian.
and i shall keep
her purity and love
and peace
and everything she brings
to me.
i shall keep her
instead of me.
i shall change,
i hope.
gonna be alright
gonna be okay
summers on her way:)

Thursday, April 01, 2010

honeybunnyhonneynownonono..



i can see through you,
you know,
you should know.
and if its not like that
i should be damned!
well,not really.
but it kinda freakes me out
i kinda love it
but i dont really
cuz its no way to do it..
u do it
like u should
or
just forget it.
..
and u chose the 3rd
way of things,
not do it
at all.
well..
honeybunnyhoney
nownonono..

Thursday, March 25, 2010

the blue bird flew over the fields of sorrow



you create a world of your own
where the truth, will never be known
--

oneself - bluebird

too many come to mind
too many of them r blue.
too many of them bring me
to you
and make me blue
..
cuz ive created
a world of my own
and i dont really
and dont really
at all
know what the truth is.
i know close to it
i dont know
where do i stand?

i stay on
spring air
float and
little by little
i die
inside.

i would put on gloves
i would never leave my bed
i would never open my eyes
i would never..
my head hurts
once again
i dont know
once again
once again
i find myself
in the same place
at the same time
its all the same..
cant i grow?
the fck~!
at least,
im the same
in my own head.
cuz theres nothing new
...

and that
should be it.
au revoir.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Can I mix in with your affairs?share a smoke, make a joke




Grasp and reach for a leg of hope
Words to memorize, words hypnotize
Words make my mouth exercise.
Words all fail the magic prize
Nothing I can say when I'm in your thighs
--
Violent Femmes - Add it up

and im gonna add it up
till then.
-
azi ploua
si e frigut
mie lene sa exist
si exist oricum
intrun mod aparte
bolind plictiseala
contagioasa si grea
care pe langa faptul
ca atarna
ma face si pe mine
sa atarn
deseori cu o mana
din pat.
am visat ciudat
ieri
ma urmarea o femeie
si ma facea
sami fie frica de ea
de parca urma
sa ma gaseasca
si sami faca ceva groaznic..
groaznic.
dar stiu eu alte lucruri mai rele
care continua
sa nu stea departe de mine
de ce?
habar nam
dar deja
parca sa mai agatat ceva de mine
si atarna prea multe
asa de multe
ca la un moment dat
o sa cad
in pacat!:))))))
nu,doar o sa cad
si o sa ma doara..
sau poate se desprind toate
si o sa reusesc sa zbor
macar putin.
good day,anyway!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

new cavity moved into my heart today




the more she screams
the more it seems
now im
threw
---

Deftones Teenager


nu mai pot
mai mult de atat
fizic
emotional
mental
ma dor toate
si se simt de parca
as renunta..
la multe,
la toate,
la fiecare
in parte.
un somn lung
si apoi
o dimineata
de vara
frumoasa..
cer prea mult?
se pare..
uneori,
prea des:)
ca da
desi
e ceva
ce pare prea putin.
as fi vrut sa stiu
sentimentul asta
la 12 ani..
si sa ma bucur mai mult
de atunci..
macar putin
acum:)
nimic..din toate
mai nimic.

i spit out happiness
and seem to lose it
daily,
lose it.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

you R all living on a rock called Earth..me? i simply rock..:D



in the sun..
i shine.
but what if
theres wind?
blaah.
only cuz it is.
i say im
like all of u
but the individuality
of every one of us
makes me different
so,
i always believed
im the outer spaced
one.
cuz my head
is always on a cloud
trying to sleep
and find
his personal peace.
i make no sense
but i make
myself..
and im lovin myself.
yay.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

how the f@ck is everybody always so fu#kin fine???



it makes me feel like throwing up!
people R crazy
people R crazy
people R crazy
and they really R
im crazy..
im paranoid
and im angry
cuz they kill themselves
they cry
they eat shEt!!!
when u ask them
how R u?
im fiiine.
yes.FUCKIN FINE.
thats what u get.
well,
i say
im fckin not fine.
im not even CLOSE to fine:))
and im lovin it.
\m/!!!!!!!!!!!
yep.lovin not being part of the
FUCKIN FINE CROWD
KNOW WHAT?
fuck ya fine.:)):D

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

for what its worth..



im feeding my soul
with hope
and thoughts
of summer.
memories
of how the sun
burned my skin
and the sand
under my feet.
im feeding my soul
with the taste of
warm water
and the smell
of the sea in my hair.
im feeding my soul
with the buzzing
of all little bugs
dizzy on
summerlove.
im feeding my soul
like most of us do
in the middle of march
when outside
its winter.
aaah!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s2UWxiLSA48&feature=related

Monday, March 08, 2010

all the bad words in one..





awwwww:((
spring became winter
and winter became
the natural enviroment to live in
full of hatered
saying shit and fuck
all the way
to school
and backwards.
shit fuck piss
on ya freakin winter.
blahaaaaaa!!!
de la primu fulg incep cuvintele
sa curga
intro mare
de mizerii.
nu vreau
si cu toate astea
nu vreau nici sa ninga
asa ca
..
nai cum
si totul se termina
cu mortzzzz..
shitty day
shit
shit
shit
shit
and did i mention shit?
blah
sucky monday..

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

iscream



iscreaaaam
cuz i wanna b happy
and ill b happy
when u r gnna make me
scream
lol
so u r gonna say
scream!
and im gonna say
make me:>
haha
:))
im havin fun a little
for a little while
and a little later too
i hope.
this one kicks ass
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J6lof_D50h8&NR=1
and i mean big time:))
rock on baby!:D

Monday, March 01, 2010

1st day of spring,they say..




a gift from a friend:)

and it says about me :

* Loves to joke
* Attractive
* Suave and caring
* Brave and fearless
* Firm and has leadership qualities
* Knows how to console others
* Too generous and egoistic
* Takes high pride of oneself
* Thirsty for praises
* Extraordinary spirit
* Easily angered
* Angry when provoked
* Easily jealous
* Observant
* Careful and cautious
* Thinks quickly
* Independent thoughts
* Loves to lead and to be led
* Loves to dream
* Talented in the arts, music and defense
* Sensitive but not petty
* Poo! r resistance against illnesses
* Loving and caring
* Loves to make friends

thank you
you,
great friend
hard to find,
hard to forget:)
a keeper!muuah!
have a nice day.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

the others



aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
dazed and confused,
trying to get more and more
wstness.
aww.
ma simt bine cu mine dar
mie dor de tine:)
lumea continua sa traiasca
simi trec prin cap..
oameni care nu merita
dar cu toate astea
cines eu sai judec?
cand ar putea sa ma judece si ei
la fel de mult.
sapoi,cines eu sa spun ca nu merita?
fiecare e aici cu un scop
trebuie sa aiba si pamantul umbra
nu?
da
dar nu prea multa si cei mai rau
e ca ei sunt mai mult decat jumate..
sau asai vad eu
fac parte din comunitate insa
sunt individuala.
ma uit la voi cu lupa
ma intreb ce ascundeti
si ce carati pe umeri
pentru ca va comportati de parca
nu exista ce urmeaza
sapoi
totul are consecinte
so i ask myself
whattafuuck??

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

u`re just like a dream



ma agat de fiecare zi care trece
si parca atarn din ce in ce mai mult
ma usuc
pe sarma asta nenorocita
pana vii tu.
--
show me show me show me
how u do that trick
the one that makes me scream
she said
the one that makes me laugh
she said
and threw her arms around my neck
show me how u do it
and i promiss u
i promiss that ill run away with u
ill run away with u.
--
atarn si ma scurg
si a inceput si soarele sa apara
zilnic
ma usuca
ma usuc.
--
why are u so far away
she said
why wont u ever know
that im in love with u
that im in love with u.
--
aaaaah
apari cand vrei
sapoi dispari
si mai apari un pic
doar ca sami faci in ciuda.
--
daylight licked me into shape
i must have been asleep for days...
and moving lips to breathe her name
i opened up my eyes
and found myself alone alone
--
aaaaaaaa
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
...
atarn,ma scurg si ma usuc incet
cu gandul la tine.
adorm si ma trezesc
cu tine:)
ma bantui si ma haitui
sapoi ce sa fac?
spui ca si tie tie rau
dar apoi tie mai bine..
eu spun cu totul altceva.:P
--
The Cure - Just Like Heaven

Monday, February 22, 2010

enjoy me, im free.



si vineeeeee
si te iaaaaa
cu caldura si bine:D
si cei cel mai frumos?
toti participam
la primirea ei.
ma bucur sa vad strada
trotuaru si liniile care o impart
in benzi
ca in benzi desenate.
aaaa..cat imi place:)
azi am refuzat
tot ce ma tinea departe de ea.
si am vrut sa ma bata soarele fix in ochi..
si ma batut
si a fost bine.
raman blocata un pic
sapoi pic
si cateun pic
din cand in cand.
da pan la urma ce sai faci?
sentampla la fel
ca orice.
aa,aa.aaaa.
ma simt rupta de lume
si ma amuza
imi place as putea sa spun
spun nu tehnologiei
dar mie dor de tine si
..as cam vrea sa te sun:))
...
si acum inchei.
innecaneam in soare!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

1,2,3,



of!nar fii si el magic?3-ul asta?
w8 for it,
1day left.
1+1/2
..la 3:)
ooooooof
despre 3 se spuneasa:

1.There are three golf balls on the moon
2.The phrase "Third time's the charm" (or, rarely, "Three time's the charm") usually means that the third time a person attempts something, he or she will succeed
3.3 is the number of wishes normally granted in most fairy tales and stories.Likewise, the protagonist in most stories faces 3 conflicts, whether mental or physical before his or her great triumph.
4.Three is the atomic number of lithium
5.Three is a 1969 film starring Charlotte Rampling and Sam Waterston.
6.Sicilia was known as Trinacria for its triangle-shape.
7.Three is the number of performers in a trio.
8.White light is composed of the mixture of the three additive primary hues: red, yellow, and blue.
9.Three is approximately pi (actually closer to 3.14159) when doing rapid engineering guesses or estimates. The same is true if one wants a rough-and-ready estimate of e, which is actually approximately 2.7183.
10.In Vietnam, it is bad luck to take a photo with three people in it. The person in the middle is believed to die soon.
11.There is a superstition that states it is unlucky to take a third light, that is, to be the third person to light a cigarette from the same match or lighter. This is commonly believed to date from the trenches of the First World War when a sniper might see the first light, take aim on the second and fire on the third.
12.Aristotle's 3-in-1 idea: Mind, Self-knowledge, Self-love
13.Witness Stand truths: The Truth, The whole Truth, Nothing but the Truth
14.We perceive our universe to have three spatial dimensions.
15.Robert Sternberg's 3 love components: Passion, Intimacy, Commitment
...
la 3?:))
i say:
happy 3months birthday, ninja:):*:D
and i got other 3words for ya..
ninjas kickass, ye!:)))))))
--
15 is half of 30=>1,5 half of 3..:P

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

just pretend i didnt tear your world apart..



in order to function
a heart must beat
a man must breath.
grass must have grounds
to grow.
and when one has grounds
one must have roots.
when one has roots
and grounds
another one is free to love them
and even has to
to acomplish his purpose
of having a heart
and breathing with it.

---

ma trezesc
din vise
despre realitate.
in ultimul timp
de parca nu mai pot sa fug
de nimic.
de parca ma urmareste tot,
de parca nas stii
de tot.
deschid ochii
chiar cand ma pun in pat
si ii inchid
sunt tot aici...
tot aici
..
si,
chiar si asa,
aici
mie imposibil
sa fiu cu totul.
am un soc
cumva care imi displace.
...
dar toate la un loc
reprezinta unul
de actualitate,
viata.
nu e tocmai ce miam dorit,
sa fiu dependenta
..
mai legat la ochi,
mi teai pus in fata
si apoi
miai aratat.
acum?
ce fac?
---

Friday, February 12, 2010

what about it ?




you know what?
say what?
what?
what about it?
--
tot purtam masti
masti protectoare,
ne ascundem in lumea asta mare
care se rezuma
la prea putin.
fiecare sub masca lui
si ne pitim
tiptil
tiptil
din ce in ce mai mult.
crezi ca timpul le rezolva pe toate?
timpul e prea ocupat sa treaca si uneori
ele raman nerezolvate..
mult timp.
ai vrea sa le rezolvi,
simti asta
si uneori tie imposibil.
tie imposibil mai mereu..
si de data asta nu e ca
nai vrea
tie lene
sau asa.
de data asta e pur imposibil.
si nu e prima oara..
cei de facut
cand timpul
nu le rezolva pe toate?
sau e timpul prea mult..?
cum e iarna prea lunga
si ziua prea scurta?
nimic nu mai merge cum trebuie.
parca neam uzat.
parca sa uzat universul intreg..
nimic nu mai merge cum trebuie
fericirea a devenit un vis
si de fapt,
mereu a fost un vis.
nevoile sunt doboratoare
la fel si cererile.
ma simt in hibernare
de ceva timp
ma caut
si ma regasesc
spontan.
--

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

ladies and gentlemen



oricat de mult incerci sa negi
sa fugi de adevar
sa te ascunzi
in inocenta copilariei
si a ce a mai ramas din ea
nu ramane de zis decat
adevarul?
care e undeva acolo
si incercam sal ascundem in fiecare zi
sil evitam
si daca..
tentalnesti cu el?
pe drumul ignorantei?
..
..
..
ull refuse it anyway,
you know what you are
and nothing resumes to that,
doesnt it./?
so,
tell me,
we all got secrets
but when something its obvious
why deny it?
--
the fck out.

Sunday, February 07, 2010

Messin' around with all these chemical rushes when natural highs come a whole lot cheaper




pentru ca miam adus aminte de ea
pentru ca ma ajutat in momente grele
pentru ca mie dor de zilele alea de vara
care erau grele
dar macar era soare.
miss dem.
got me dreamin`

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c_B7CCPbxpU

---
:)