was, am, will be

a child.
and how i miss being so little
my parents to lift me by my hands
while taking a walk,
and just that
to be heaven.
i miss feeling safe
and happy.
i miss thinking
all i know
is all of it.
i miss knowing nothing
of what i know now.
the feeling of
just waiting to grow up
to face this life,
wating to be oneself,
individual.
it would have happened anyway
but why wishing to grow?
i wish i ungrow
back to 4years old
and knowing the essentials,
like how to count to 10.
..
i miss crying
for the really stupid things
i made,
and feeling the pure conscience judging me
by what would my parents think,
a part of that is still with me.
i miss being
naive
enthusiastic
and alive,
while being underaged
and even if little
with strong feelings of happines
cuz im starting to believe ive wasted it all on my childhood